im telling you now,
emotions cannot be expressed through a dumbass COMPUTER.
even if i type "haha", does it mean im really laughing?
i can be crying while im typing that,
i can be having other emotions running though me,
but my fingers, they just happen to type h-a-h-a-h

its good to go to the gym
when u have feelings that you think might burst out of ur lungs.
hahah i was on the treadmill and i ran really hard.
i wanted to vent all my anger on it.
so i ran.
i ran like 14.2 km/min
thats frigging fast for me.
i usually run at 9.
its like i wanted all my anger/sadness/whatever to really run off me.
14.2 km/s is FAST.
ask raymond, the gym expert.
but its a great feeling after that,
its as if all the bad and mean feelings all blew off ur body.
and you know what?
i hate explaning things now,
i'll rather get scolded and keep the truth to myself.
i dont know why,
i just..
dont wanna try to waste my breath explaning and explaning,
and in the end you realise,
you said all that shit for nothing.
and i really HATE showing my emotions to anyone.
even my besties.
if im sad, i might say but i wont start crying and all that stuff.
i mean, do people really do that?
cry..and go"omg that jerk dumped me" or "why did she backstab me?"
and weep like there's no tmr.
if i cry, i'll cry alone.
if im sad, i wanna be alone.
im turning into a freak i know,
but i cant help it too.
im pretty weird i guess?
but if i do show you my bare naked emotions,
like my million dollar tears,
you must be someone to me.
my million dollar tears,
dont start collecting them into a bottle.


im always a step too late,
and the wind seems to be blowing my memories of you away.
far, far away.